Title::..Your Words Just Aren’t Enough
Reality::..Lost – season 3, Greatest Hits
Spoilers::..Through the Looking Glass
Rated::..G
Genre::..Angst & romance
Characters::..Claire, Charlie & Aaron
Pairing::..CC
Author’s Note::..This whole fic was inspired by the lyrics that you find in the title, I stole them from the song ‘Give in to Me’ by Michael Jackson.
I thought it would be interesting to explore why Claire doesn’t seem to reciprocate Charlie’s feelings so here it is. But I kept it quite short because I wanted it to be angsty (seeing is how I barely ever do any post-Charlie angsty Claire fics) & I feel short angst is the best for me to write.
Summary::..It was difficult for Claire to put into words how she felt, especially when it came to Charlie.





It was difficult for Claire to put into words how she felt. It didn’t matter what the situation was, she could never do it.

The only person that she felt that she could talk to was Aaron because with him it didn’t matter if she pronounced things incorrectly or put words where they weren’t actually meant to go.

Aaron would never judge her when he was still so young.

Babies were easily to talk to. They just gurgled & looked up with you watching as you split your heart out to them. Once Aaron learnt how to talk that privilege would be gone.

Adults were difficult to talk to, especially for Claire who wasn’t a master of words. She needed to be on a really deep level with someone for her to actually be able to speak to them properly.

Most of the time she avoided talking about her feelings. She couldn’t really understand them herself & getting them out was so annoying.

She didn’t like burdening people with her problems & even if she wanted to get her feelings out, it wasn’t as if she’d be able to find the words to.

Keeping her feelings to herself served in her favour a great deal of the time. It made her mysterious & it didn’t make her seem as if she was over the top emotional all of the time.

But sometimes she wished that she knew the right words to say at the right time. She wished that everyone could understand exactly where she was coming from & exactly how she felt.

She wished that she didn’t have to be so mysterious all the time.

She wished that she could talk to Charlie the way that she could talk to Aaron. If only for five minutes he could stop moving & let her tell him exactly how she felt.

But he was a nervous ball of energy. She loved that about him, he was always up for a new adventure & he was so desperate to impress. She just doubted that he would ever be able to sit still long enough for her to be able to tell him how she felt.

Not that she had the words to tell him anyway.

She figured that now would be the perfect time to tell him. He was just sitting in her tent playing with Aaron. She could simply put her folding aside, put her full attention on him & slowly begin to form words.

But she was too scared. He was doing so much for her & what if what she said just wasn’t enough for him. Her words wouldn’t be enough for him.

She stayed quiet. She said little things that had little meaning but when he leaned in to kiss her she closed the gap between them hoping that maybe this would say all that she couldn’t, hoping that he would understand that she cared for him & that she wanted him to come back okay.

After they had leant back from each other he smiled to her & she thought that he really did understand. She smiled back at him thankfully.

Maybe somehow things between them would work out okay.

… + ;;;

If Claire had known that the dumb kiss would be the last time that she would ever be with Charlie she would have pushed herself to talk. He was about to go & sacrifice his life for her. But she hadn’t said anything. She thought that she’d been able to sum it up in some stupid kiss.

He had probably died never knowing how she felt. She was an idiot. She should never shut her mouth again, maybe then she could have stopped Charlie.

She didn’t know why he had gone on that dumb suicide mission in the first place but she bet that if she had told him that she loved him he would have backed out. He would have wanted to stay with her & Aaron.

It was her fault that he’d died.

She’d hate herself until the end of her days. She’d thought that her words wouldn’t be enough but anything would have been better than saying nothing.

Anything would be better than being without Charlie.